its Final.

hi bloggie..
salam...

tonite i got a clear cut confirmation.
he said it right in front of me.

it confirms. he never cares.
Never.

aigh...that Hurts.

Sedetik Lebih and Its Relevance

assalamualaikum bloggie ..
as usual ..blog ini karatz...
coz i do not know what else .or how else to write. most of my time is occupied with works and also trying to figure out how to walk this life.

am currently listening to Merong Mahawangsa's OST...SEdetik Lebih ..by Annuar Zain...the ever romantic Non Married Malay Guy ...ever...*hawt* hehe

the fact that AZ sang this song is not why am forever glued to it ....the timing of Merong's Debut and the release of this song are just ..perfect. It hit me again with the so called turbulence am having in my life. at the moment.

pls take a closer look at the lyrics...

Setiap nafas yang di hembus setiap degupan jantung
aku selalu memikirkan Mu, dalam sedar di buai angan dalam
tidur dan khayalan ..aku selalu ..memikirkan Mu..
ternyata ku perlu kan Cinta....dari diri Mu Sayang...
Barulah terasa ...ku Bernyawa....

Kasih ku .. Ku Amat mencintai ...Kamu
Kerna Kau Beri erti hidup...Ku kan Terus Mencinta...
Sedetik Lebih~~~ Selepas SelamaNya....

Di kala penuh ketakutan ..dengan badai kehidupan...
ku bersyukur ada nya Kamu
Biarlah kehilangan semua yang di miliki di Dunia
asal Masih ada nya Kamu....

Ternyata Ku perlu kan Cinta...Dari diri mu Sayang baru lah terasa...
Ku Bernyawa....Kasihku...Ku Amat Mencintai Kamu
Kerna beri arti hidup...Ku kan Terus Mencinta...
sedetik Lebih...selepas selamanya...

yeah ...selepas SelamaNya...
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that will arrive sooner than I expected. I haven't had enough time to even smile with Kamu. Let alone to Laugh. Watching Kamu Fading away...slipping away right under my Nose ...is Painful. Indeed ...undeniably Painful. I'm Bleeding inside ...thinking that Kamu will be Gone~

It's going too fast till I am depressed most of the time. My Doa for Kamu ...is Not Granted I presumed as there is still No Sign of Kamu ...Understanding the Fact that This Heart has Beat because of his Ignorance. An excuse? Why did It Choose Kamu? I do not want to Know. Why does It ever Run to Kamu? Every single time ...I have to Fight this Will. I have to Work extra hard in Forgetting Kamu. When my Brothers were telling me to Let go of the Past, I was Hoping he wants me to Reserve for Kamu....I was hoping dearly inside for It to be Kamu....and I was Not Right. The hope was too much. The hope was looking for its Reason to believe ...that it is Kamu that I chose....Not the Fate.

Kamu,
I miss the times we shared. I just hope you Feel the Same.
Eventhough, you're Not.
I still Hope, in Despair of Truth.