Salam globs
It has been long years of absences, I somehow have forgotten that I used to write blog avidly. I was really into it. I met lots of people from various backgrounds due to this site.
I cant remember what brought me back here. perhaps memories?
Most of the readers are no longer around. Kcynodia @ Hussaini is gone. Probably 5 kids by now. Ary has definitely left. I do not know if he still can access this, I miss him. His melodramatic sentences. I wish him all the best in his life. I knew he has "left" me long years ago. You take care ...
the rests ...yes indeed they are all gone from my screen and my life. Life changes people, grows them into better mankind inshaAllah ..
This marks the end of my writing here, I wish not to pursuit this line anymore. If you happen to come back, meaning somehow along the way you must have thought of me and missed me - somehow. I thank you for the kind friendship we have had over the years. The unspoken thoughts we kept till now, may forever be unknown for we chose not to Share it.
Take care globbies...where ever youre all are, GOD BLESS.
p/s: to Ary, I cared too much about you ..till I lost you ..For GOOD.
farewell Googlybear.
FIN
Tuesday, August 27, 2019
Sunday, August 25, 2019
First Day
Assalamualaikum and Good day globbie ..
It has been a while. Initially, I do not have any intention to continue blogging as this is no longer sensational in this period. Blogging is like fossil. Pretty much Dead. Yet, somehow I suddenly feel like typing and sitting in these book crowded place and pour my mind out.
I have met with several awkward moments the past months in regards to relationship. Nothing special, just friend-ship. I found it Stressful. haha tell me about it. Like people here ..well most people here are not aligned in thinking as I am, as a result, I freaked them out. LOL. Like seriously. I love dinner and eating out, irregardless with any gender but here it is perceived as "date". Bizarre isnt it. How simple things can turn sour due to irreconcilable thinking. I really do not know how to overcome or even deal with this type of difficulties. I have tried my best to adjust myself to the living style here, it worked in certain aspects but not much in some. Am I too old already ? - Insensitive.
I have met with several awkward moments the past months in regards to relationship. Nothing special, just friend-ship. I found it Stressful. haha tell me about it. Like people here ..well most people here are not aligned in thinking as I am, as a result, I freaked them out. LOL. Like seriously. I love dinner and eating out, irregardless with any gender but here it is perceived as "date". Bizarre isnt it. How simple things can turn sour due to irreconcilable thinking. I really do not know how to overcome or even deal with this type of difficulties. I have tried my best to adjust myself to the living style here, it worked in certain aspects but not much in some. Am I too old already ? - Insensitive.
I miss good friendships that communicate, laugh, cry, exchange thoughts and pretty much on anything, sex even ( i mean topics..not having it...) I crave for academic talks, opinions, of which do not have to agree with me all the time, but something authentic, critical thinking ..Am I asking for too much?
I guess I wont find those here....?
SIGH.
Monday, January 14, 2019
2019 !!
Salam globs!
Its 2019 and am still alive! Hehehe alhamdulillah ..it has been quite a well since I write here..loads of things happened.
We all grow.
Technology updated
People fall in love and out of love.
Life changes....
Good to be back!
Its 2019 and am still alive! Hehehe alhamdulillah ..it has been quite a well since I write here..loads of things happened.
We all grow.
Technology updated
People fall in love and out of love.
Life changes....
Good to be back!
Friday, May 11, 2012
agony.
Salam globbie..
it has been a while since i last post. and same with others whenever they ask me where have i been ? i would say " i kan sedang sibuk bercinta!" oh well...that is my sarcasm actually....
how do i say ? life is indeed beautiful and challenging..else ..we won't be here today as HIS Khalifah ..and ruling this earth.
I am going through a lot at the moment of writing this and I didn't think it's a nuisance in my life. however, i did feel tired and Tired. at one point ..when am overly stressed ...i just hope God would take my life. *does that sound right? heee * but seriously .. i am tired and stressed out. i have no one to turn to except Allah. cliche isn't it? but that's the truth.
i have no more idea to write. i need to focus and work on my TQ12 project. Dear Allah...Let it happen in COLORS...lots and lots of them...aaamiinnn..
it has been a while since i last post. and same with others whenever they ask me where have i been ? i would say " i kan sedang sibuk bercinta!" oh well...that is my sarcasm actually....
how do i say ? life is indeed beautiful and challenging..else ..we won't be here today as HIS Khalifah ..and ruling this earth.
I am going through a lot at the moment of writing this and I didn't think it's a nuisance in my life. however, i did feel tired and Tired. at one point ..when am overly stressed ...i just hope God would take my life. *does that sound right? heee * but seriously .. i am tired and stressed out. i have no one to turn to except Allah. cliche isn't it? but that's the truth.
i have no more idea to write. i need to focus and work on my TQ12 project. Dear Allah...Let it happen in COLORS...lots and lots of them...aaamiinnn..
Thursday, March 15, 2012
MQA gaga
salam globbie!
hoho...i'm Drowning. I have submission by 18th. FOUR to be exact and I have only started with the frameworks! friggin things have been delayed due to my abnormal brain which can't even focus even to start A sentence! I'm Doomed. Can I make it? beats me globiee...it's fcukin' annoying too with all these assholes trying to beat tha Crap outta me with their nonsensical acts.
the last 2 days have been tied up with MQA, i took my AL to simply focus on my write ups. he he he ..guess what..i didnt move much. this is what u get when you are Blocked. as simple as that. suffice to say ...banyak dosa ..Allah Punishes....huhu :} *ai tot so too* ngeee :)
oh! oh! by the way, I went to my last session with Carolyn today, it was FUN. i think I spent like 2 hours 930-1130am....by talking and Talking. hahahahahahaha...When Carol meets McSha...nothing can stop them from potpetting and giggling like there is no tomorrow. We were catching up on so many things, the kuching trip, the Commotion at HQ, the kek lapis, The Problem of hers, my past ( suddenly I thought of my late brother and Grandfather) and yes ..I miss THEM very much. I told Carol, the time spent with Aboh (my late Grandad) was never enough because he managed to be There...eventho not really there. Most of the time he would be in the office and Around, but he always ensures his presence is felt. via Disney's cartoon ( of gazillions sets my uncle had to tape and buy...for ME :) )hahahaha and also all the assistants, PA, secretary...u name it ..our babysitters were aplenty. and they were all Family to Us. 'twas never a strange feeling being around them. and they're always The Uncles and The Aunties of our growing up years in Alor Setar. It was indeed a Home, where all the Hearts...Were. I miss the fact that he Loved me for who and what I was ( at that time) I wish he is Alive now ...for I know I will be making many right decisions instead of the wrong ones :) he he I know for sure he Will be there at the End of the line ...to say "YOU DO IT, why must you expect others to do it for you?" - YOU DO IT! yeah Aboh....if ONLY you are here Now, to be my Confidante, my Advisor, my coins-provider *coz everytime I wanna put the coins in that stupid MPKB slot, I would always think of u ..and my habit of tip-toeing into your room to collect all the shillings on the carpet...under the bed....or in your pocket even! hahaha* aaahh....you have always been my Best-est Grandfather...ever. There is no one like you. Now, a Disney movie is scornfully meaningless ..without you. hehe ...what am i yapping scornfully? I grew up with that. ha ha ...and today with Carol , those Images came out Clear in My Head. and She said to me "you have been a traveler since u were young....no wonder...." upon knowing the fact that I have been put on board the MAS Fokker every school break, alone and be "received" by my Uncle Jang in Alor Setar...without fail. I was my Aboh's favorite "Parcel" besides my Brother G; of course. It's queer how those images were so Clear today; in my Mind and Heart. Life is Amazing noh globbie...it Gives Aboh and Abg Saidi to me. Whom the latter, i did not have the opportunity to even shake his hand. He passed On, before I was even Conceived. To a reckless driver.
The 4 most significant persons in my life. and now I only have two more left. Super-Significant. and Carol too admitted that, now she knew whom did I inherited; oh ..The General indeed.
No wonder People have been talking of me to be the Sidekick...funny...I never feel That way. least not that I know Of. however, I do know for sure, I adore his Charisma and Patriotism.
and today too, I realize I am too Strong in the eye of a Person till she risks everything she has to beat me. It has never crossed this chomel mind of mine, she would relentlessly go to the un-superficial extend, oh globbie, she did. or may be does. my days are still circulating around that bimbo. anyhow, I really feel sorry for her....whot..? sorry? nahh....pity...yea ..i pity her ...for having to live in fear, of me. isn't it pathetically funny? Me? a nobody; to her the very least. could shake her gibraltar-ass~ * hahahaha excuse my french, i didn't mean to offend anyone :) *
-What doesn't KILL me, will make me STRONGER- I vehemently believe in that. The stronger i Become, the more you are annoyed with me, Is that even MY PROBLEM? you wanna culture dislike-ness and cynical jokes towards me ...go ahead, it was not even my problem to think of. Nonetheless, you are only conforming of your True Colors. of which, it's none of my problem either. he he. Let me ask ya globbie, did i put you in hot seat? LOL- only a jilted loser will feel or be in such situation.
I believe in what Goes around, will come Around. when that day comes, no matter how hard you try, you can never Run; nor Hide. I just hope you do not have to end up in a trash corner somewhere eating Junkies.
Again, talking to Carol was an eye-opener moment. She made me realized my un-limited Capability (within the human capacity). She made me realized how Lucky I am. She made me realized how Grown have I been in this Process. She made me realized, I'm SUPER CUTE DOW! hahahahahahhaha * oh eat your heart out for crying out loud *itcH. *lol~
all in all, as a HUMAN with very little good deeds in hand, I am forever THANKFUL Allah made my life in such a way. I learn to recognize....a Friend or a Foe.
and I'm still super cute with so many things at hand that many will be envious of. but hey, when you take it negatively, how can there ever be positive? Instead, work hard for it, the Rewards are Bountiful. and THOSE are PRICELESS, not even a PhD can ...BUY.
To Carol, Thank you for opening up my Mind; in such a creative and magnificent way. you're one of a Kind-lah Amoi he he he
hoho...i'm Drowning. I have submission by 18th. FOUR to be exact and I have only started with the frameworks! friggin things have been delayed due to my abnormal brain which can't even focus even to start A sentence! I'm Doomed. Can I make it? beats me globiee...it's fcukin' annoying too with all these assholes trying to beat tha Crap outta me with their nonsensical acts.
the last 2 days have been tied up with MQA, i took my AL to simply focus on my write ups. he he he ..guess what..i didnt move much. this is what u get when you are Blocked. as simple as that. suffice to say ...banyak dosa ..Allah Punishes....huhu :} *ai tot so too* ngeee :)
oh! oh! by the way, I went to my last session with Carolyn today, it was FUN. i think I spent like 2 hours 930-1130am....by talking and Talking. hahahahahahaha...When Carol meets McSha...nothing can stop them from potpetting and giggling like there is no tomorrow. We were catching up on so many things, the kuching trip, the Commotion at HQ, the kek lapis, The Problem of hers, my past ( suddenly I thought of my late brother and Grandfather) and yes ..I miss THEM very much. I told Carol, the time spent with Aboh (my late Grandad) was never enough because he managed to be There...eventho not really there. Most of the time he would be in the office and Around, but he always ensures his presence is felt. via Disney's cartoon ( of gazillions sets my uncle had to tape and buy...for ME :) )hahahaha and also all the assistants, PA, secretary...u name it ..our babysitters were aplenty. and they were all Family to Us. 'twas never a strange feeling being around them. and they're always The Uncles and The Aunties of our growing up years in Alor Setar. It was indeed a Home, where all the Hearts...Were. I miss the fact that he Loved me for who and what I was ( at that time) I wish he is Alive now ...for I know I will be making many right decisions instead of the wrong ones :) he he I know for sure he Will be there at the End of the line ...to say "YOU DO IT, why must you expect others to do it for you?" - YOU DO IT! yeah Aboh....if ONLY you are here Now, to be my Confidante, my Advisor, my coins-provider *coz everytime I wanna put the coins in that stupid MPKB slot, I would always think of u ..and my habit of tip-toeing into your room to collect all the shillings on the carpet...under the bed....or in your pocket even! hahaha* aaahh....you have always been my Best-est Grandfather...ever. There is no one like you. Now, a Disney movie is scornfully meaningless ..without you. hehe ...what am i yapping scornfully? I grew up with that. ha ha ...and today with Carol , those Images came out Clear in My Head. and She said to me "you have been a traveler since u were young....no wonder...." upon knowing the fact that I have been put on board the MAS Fokker every school break, alone and be "received" by my Uncle Jang in Alor Setar...without fail. I was my Aboh's favorite "Parcel" besides my Brother G; of course. It's queer how those images were so Clear today; in my Mind and Heart. Life is Amazing noh globbie...it Gives Aboh and Abg Saidi to me. Whom the latter, i did not have the opportunity to even shake his hand. He passed On, before I was even Conceived. To a reckless driver.
The 4 most significant persons in my life. and now I only have two more left. Super-Significant. and Carol too admitted that, now she knew whom did I inherited; oh ..The General indeed.
No wonder People have been talking of me to be the Sidekick...funny...I never feel That way. least not that I know Of. however, I do know for sure, I adore his Charisma and Patriotism.
and today too, I realize I am too Strong in the eye of a Person till she risks everything she has to beat me. It has never crossed this chomel mind of mine, she would relentlessly go to the un-superficial extend, oh globbie, she did. or may be does. my days are still circulating around that bimbo. anyhow, I really feel sorry for her....whot..? sorry? nahh....pity...yea ..i pity her ...for having to live in fear, of me. isn't it pathetically funny? Me? a nobody; to her the very least. could shake her gibraltar-ass~ * hahahaha excuse my french, i didn't mean to offend anyone :) *
-What doesn't KILL me, will make me STRONGER- I vehemently believe in that. The stronger i Become, the more you are annoyed with me, Is that even MY PROBLEM? you wanna culture dislike-ness and cynical jokes towards me ...go ahead, it was not even my problem to think of. Nonetheless, you are only conforming of your True Colors. of which, it's none of my problem either. he he. Let me ask ya globbie, did i put you in hot seat? LOL- only a jilted loser will feel or be in such situation.
I believe in what Goes around, will come Around. when that day comes, no matter how hard you try, you can never Run; nor Hide. I just hope you do not have to end up in a trash corner somewhere eating Junkies.
Again, talking to Carol was an eye-opener moment. She made me realized my un-limited Capability (within the human capacity). She made me realized how Lucky I am. She made me realized how Grown have I been in this Process. She made me realized, I'm SUPER CUTE DOW! hahahahahahhaha * oh eat your heart out for crying out loud *itcH. *lol~
all in all, as a HUMAN with very little good deeds in hand, I am forever THANKFUL Allah made my life in such a way. I learn to recognize....a Friend or a Foe.
and I'm still super cute with so many things at hand that many will be envious of. but hey, when you take it negatively, how can there ever be positive? Instead, work hard for it, the Rewards are Bountiful. and THOSE are PRICELESS, not even a PhD can ...BUY.
To Carol, Thank you for opening up my Mind; in such a creative and magnificent way. you're one of a Kind-lah Amoi he he he
Monday, March 5, 2012
Where was I? kampung katanya!
salam globbie!
huhu ...it has been a while hor? ya lor...works suck...life...suck.....me? no suck one lah! hahaha ...but all in all... my first quarter of 2012 is not really nice. so to say. therefore. ..i decided to leave this "country" kampung gegerl ni skejap. taking a breather...and where was i ? ho ho ho....frankly globs...it became the talk of the town! hahaha giler meriah ...tetiba ramai bebenor keepies *short for keypochees* nak menjaga kain aku...*tettttttt* hahahaha
bak kata si sopek..."Kelik Kapung!" hahaha yeahhh...we kelik kapum alrite...we were ...
erkk...apakah? he he ni la ..people in My world call it ..Kalimantan...bordering Bau, Sarawak. It was a weekend getaway for us. we simply wanna go makan-makan and nothing else...oh okay..sleeps too. we enjoyed observing culture and merely standing in the crowds of people who spoke the language of unknown, and yes apart from the remote areas, we love the town too where I really enjoyed my nites at Tune's. they have the best best thus far..( of course u can't compare it to New York The Plaza....but hey...for a budget hotel, it's super comfy :)
i love the off-white sheet...gebu! berlapis2 mattress. and it's fluffy too! hihi...now i can't stop thinking about sopek's friend, si Chu. it's funny how he called me "speaking london.." hahaha ....what to do ...nasib la Jah ..janji kita happy ...kan? hahahahaha it's actually kinda hard to get rid this habit ..because a ticer..always gotta be a ticer. annoying in some sense! hahahahaha
and last nite before i meredah tangga ERL putrajya sentral tu ..I went out with my former student, si Casse ( chu..mmg nama dia gini..bukan omputeh...sabahan he he he ) and she brought me to hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....*konpom Chu merembez!*
empty table. habis sudah! hahahaha ...amcam?
hahaha ..those are Salted Eggs Crab and Thermidor apa benda cheese tah...Prawn! gile heaven! and ...you do not have to Fly all the way to Kalimantan to get all these! of tosh....nor menjelajah kelate even! it's in your DOORSTEP! of Kuala Lumpur je pown~ hahahahahhahaha....
Here you go : www.fattycrabs.com
the owner is Franco Yong. happening guy. friendly too. knock yourself out with the DELIVERY SERVICES TOO! but sorry hor...dua orang rakan ku...sopek and soChu, Putrajaya takdak orang nak kayuh beskal pi...so they only deliver within the vicinity of KL only...to be specific..please refer the website. altho i would like to remind you....blazing thru the site will definitely KILL your brain. trust me. tak pecaya....pi la ushar...ha ha ha ...(jgn cerca aku lak pasni ..hahahahha)
Since gambar2 chantek at Sarawak are with soPek ..so I shall just wait for her to update it for me via FB. in the meantime....uolls....ENJOY that KETAM upthere! i dah makan....korang? hihihihi nguahahahahahhahaha ^_^
oh yah...by the way Chu...it was an honor n nice meeting you ..awak memang chomel dan daring...kita suka cara awak cakap..memang geboo habis! sia-sia la sapa yang selalu suka menDURJANAkan Chu...orang tu takkan bahagia ....apaPun...DiriMu always Berharga pada Mereka yang tahu Menerima mu Seadanya. (hahahaha euww ...mcm cerpen !) be cute and be bold! nanti May ni banjer mek sha ketam fattycrabs deh? ngehehehehe~
Muahs!
nota kaki: flite AA dari 31May - 4 June...hahahah
huhu ...it has been a while hor? ya lor...works suck...life...suck.....me? no suck one lah! hahaha ...but all in all... my first quarter of 2012 is not really nice. so to say. therefore. ..i decided to leave this "country" kampung gegerl ni skejap. taking a breather...and where was i ? ho ho ho....frankly globs...it became the talk of the town! hahaha giler meriah ...tetiba ramai bebenor keepies *short for keypochees* nak menjaga kain aku...*tettttttt* hahahaha
bak kata si sopek..."Kelik Kapung!" hahaha yeahhh...we kelik kapum alrite...we were ...
erkk...apakah? he he ni la ..people in My world call it ..Kalimantan...bordering Bau, Sarawak. It was a weekend getaway for us. we simply wanna go makan-makan and nothing else...oh okay..sleeps too. we enjoyed observing culture and merely standing in the crowds of people who spoke the language of unknown, and yes apart from the remote areas, we love the town too where I really enjoyed my nites at Tune's. they have the best best thus far..( of course u can't compare it to New York The Plaza....but hey...for a budget hotel, it's super comfy :)
i love the off-white sheet...gebu! berlapis2 mattress. and it's fluffy too! hihi...now i can't stop thinking about sopek's friend, si Chu. it's funny how he called me "speaking london.." hahaha ....what to do ...nasib la Jah ..janji kita happy ...kan? hahahahaha it's actually kinda hard to get rid this habit ..because a ticer..always gotta be a ticer. annoying in some sense! hahahahahaand last nite before i meredah tangga ERL putrajya sentral tu ..I went out with my former student, si Casse ( chu..mmg nama dia gini..bukan omputeh...sabahan he he he ) and she brought me to hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....*konpom Chu merembez!*
empty table. habis sudah! hahahaha ...amcam?
Here you go : www.fattycrabs.com
the owner is Franco Yong. happening guy. friendly too. knock yourself out with the DELIVERY SERVICES TOO! but sorry hor...dua orang rakan ku...sopek and soChu, Putrajaya takdak orang nak kayuh beskal pi...so they only deliver within the vicinity of KL only...to be specific..please refer the website. altho i would like to remind you....blazing thru the site will definitely KILL your brain. trust me. tak pecaya....pi la ushar...ha ha ha ...(jgn cerca aku lak pasni ..hahahahha)
Since gambar2 chantek at Sarawak are with soPek ..so I shall just wait for her to update it for me via FB. in the meantime....uolls....ENJOY that KETAM upthere! i dah makan....korang? hihihihi nguahahahahahhahaha ^_^
oh yah...by the way Chu...it was an honor n nice meeting you ..awak memang chomel dan daring...kita suka cara awak cakap..memang geboo habis! sia-sia la sapa yang selalu suka menDURJANAkan Chu...orang tu takkan bahagia ....apaPun...DiriMu always Berharga pada Mereka yang tahu Menerima mu Seadanya. (hahahaha euww ...mcm cerpen !) be cute and be bold! nanti May ni banjer mek sha ketam fattycrabs deh? ngehehehehe~
Muahs!
nota kaki: flite AA dari 31May - 4 June...hahahah
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
sickly 2012
salam globbie..
huigshh...brroooooooooooooooobbbbbbbbbbbb aacchoom! haa...this is what 2012 likes for me. it's aweful, dreadful and sickly year... Sickly too..if ya know what i mean globs...
to some life is beautiful..and that immaculate beauty ..is somewhat tarnished by sluts and slits and stupidity. plain simple. yesterday i came across Hj Rosdi ..a pious man ..who is our Monday Liqa leader. he'll be taking his Sabbatical soon. going home to his family and rests. i think he needs it badly. people are not getting what he is preaching and the youngsters are just killin him ..even faster than fate is! like seriously. i feel sorry for him. because i can understand what he is going through..pretty much like mine...the difference is that he preaches...I? oh yeah I whine...like super a lot. heee :) somehow I am well aware that MY whines ..are pretty much still logic...and not the bitchy-slutty type..*there I've said all those bad words in nice manner...aren't I?* hahahaha vongoks...as always :) heee....
seriously globbie, I am seeing people who refuse to Learn. As I told Hj Rosdi yesterday..how stupid can a person be ? why can they not Learn? i mean ..it IS a simple calculated risk...it isn't something majestic or so to say...'aite? and he replied me " Cik Sha, this people need more time to Learn..." and me and my stupid grin on ma face.. " Like HOW LONG?" I knew he wanted to "babble" me about the perjuangan Rasulullah and his sahabat during those years preaching Islam...but he KNEW too I will be saying ..." YOU wanna COMPARE these people with Rasulullah n Sahabat? they were in STONE AGE! WE have TOO many things around to IGNITE these kepala Otaks of OURS , demmit...*yang ni aku cakap dalam hati la bab demmit ni hehehe)" - Hj Rosdi KNEW i will never accept such comparison NOT because I do not believe in Rasulullah SAW...I DO believe in his perjuangan ..SUMPAH I DO. but i do not like people use that comparison because what if Rasulullah has iPad2 at that time? ...Galaxy Notes?..Tabs?..Emails?..Blogs?...Islam would have Spreaded Faster! and No wars to appreciate whatever the people in the Past had done! that's just about it. SOME of our people are not APPRECIATIVE. period.
those in the past they shed bloods, lost families, friends, relatives..wealth..every single thing to let the children of Now prosper. Unfortunately we did not See and Appreciate that. we prefer to tear up some stupid posters and got suspended for nothing ..and we celebrated people who were shouting on the streets asking for Justice ..we parade those who are not doing anything but breaking apart the Soul of Brothers and Sisters...like...WTF is that? Don't these people have a-mind of their OWN to like.......THINK? I do not have to be whatever Colors there are out there ..to THINK! I GOVERN my Own Mind. simple. What does Religion mean to you, when it is making your Heart Dirty and Stink? -exactly-
and you wanna tell me it's Perjuangan? this is the part where i'd say ..Kiss my Big A*S. *smirk*
it all boils down to the reeky-facts where the same shits happen in our working environment. people are not Bright enough. by that capital B i do hope you know what am Sayin' globbie....do not read me Literally, for Cryin' out Loud. Have I been too Obvious in some ways? huhu...
It's suffocating to be in a working environment where people (ok ..excuse me...SOME PEOPLE) are big-fat pretentious liar (that's another idiom haha)
what's worse is that it involves some OTHER people who wanna do things right..follow The Book and Live happily ever after. (cewah...ko ingat ko cinderella beydah? kapish!)
On that note, I am definitely hearing Hj Rosdi at the back of my head saying "Cik Sha (dia suka benor panggil aku gini)...... Kita hidup ni manusia ada macam-macam warna, macam-macam sikap dan perangai (bila aku baru je nak buka mulut and mencapab) nanti dulu...bagi saya habis kan....( hahahhaha ) Sudah menjadi lumrah, kita di jadikan dengan pelbagai kerenah ..untuk saling melengkapi...( aku pun akan mula la berkata dalam hati ..U THINK?) saling tolong menolong.....saling nasihat menasihati (TENG! TENG! TENGGG!! ) supaya kita dapat menjadi Umat yang mendapat Redha dan Kasih ALLAH SWT (part ni aku taleh kata apa da la ..sbb confirm Betui :) )
tapi kan globbie...part Redha Allah tu betui laa...tapi manjang aku yang kene ...where got Road? ada je orang cari jalan nak kenakan nak kadambabu kan aku...because? am much lower than them? apa hengat ko bagus sangat ke? please do not think i didn't know your bad shites, all these whiles. No one knows because I...this CIK SHA is a NICE,FARKIN' KIND-HEARTED PERSON KIAH OII! i am not the leaky type who'd potpetting for no apparent reason (do notice the word APPARENT there...hihiks..apparently kisohnya kan) PLUS, bukan jenis aku nak hodohkan orang yang sudah sedia ada HODOH...reti? ko tanggung je la ngan Allah SWT...Kendian. settle.
Moral of the story, Be honest of who you are (may be not all...but to a certain degree where it won't bite u in return hehe ) No matter who you are ...how you do things around you ..Inshallah ...Allah Listens and He will Reward YOU for your Kindness and Goodwill towards People. Bersabar (although aku ni pun ilang sabar gak kadang2) and One Day you will get a much better and Rewarded Life ( jangan tanya aku HOW LONG sebab aku tau ....tu seksaaan Dunia...but trust me I've only Lived 20cents of it...and I did not plan to stop...just yet)
They can keep Tormenting us with all shites in the world ...but they Have to Answer to HIM. may be not tomorrow...but Allah Promised ..ITU PASTI.
so what if you lose it once in a while...go get some haagen daaz or a good treat of Ben & Jerry's (super Vanilla...oh yeah!) at Cold Storage, OR simply take a day ( or TWO! haha) annual leave...(like i did..today ..haha) and lazy your asssssssssssss around the house with good food...good cable tv and simplicity of life....naked! ( hahahahahah just kidding....hazab ko...kene panah petir...padan muko! hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha)
what i meant was ...go pamper yourself..do whatever you like...go bungee jump, if u can afford it ...spa...bowl...shopping retails...whatever shites u want...THEY CAN'T TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU!
WOOOHOOOO!!!!
eat your heart out sakkkaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
huigshh...brroooooooooooooooobbbbbbbbbbbb aacchoom! haa...this is what 2012 likes for me. it's aweful, dreadful and sickly year... Sickly too..if ya know what i mean globs...
to some life is beautiful..and that immaculate beauty ..is somewhat tarnished by sluts and slits and stupidity. plain simple. yesterday i came across Hj Rosdi ..a pious man ..who is our Monday Liqa leader. he'll be taking his Sabbatical soon. going home to his family and rests. i think he needs it badly. people are not getting what he is preaching and the youngsters are just killin him ..even faster than fate is! like seriously. i feel sorry for him. because i can understand what he is going through..pretty much like mine...the difference is that he preaches...I? oh yeah I whine...like super a lot. heee :) somehow I am well aware that MY whines ..are pretty much still logic...and not the bitchy-slutty type..*there I've said all those bad words in nice manner...aren't I?* hahahaha vongoks...as always :) heee....
seriously globbie, I am seeing people who refuse to Learn. As I told Hj Rosdi yesterday..how stupid can a person be ? why can they not Learn? i mean ..it IS a simple calculated risk...it isn't something majestic or so to say...'aite? and he replied me " Cik Sha, this people need more time to Learn..." and me and my stupid grin on ma face.. " Like HOW LONG?" I knew he wanted to "babble" me about the perjuangan Rasulullah and his sahabat during those years preaching Islam...but he KNEW too I will be saying ..." YOU wanna COMPARE these people with Rasulullah n Sahabat? they were in STONE AGE! WE have TOO many things around to IGNITE these kepala Otaks of OURS , demmit...*yang ni aku cakap dalam hati la bab demmit ni hehehe)" - Hj Rosdi KNEW i will never accept such comparison NOT because I do not believe in Rasulullah SAW...I DO believe in his perjuangan ..SUMPAH I DO. but i do not like people use that comparison because what if Rasulullah has iPad2 at that time? ...Galaxy Notes?..Tabs?..Emails?..Blogs?...Islam would have Spreaded Faster! and No wars to appreciate whatever the people in the Past had done! that's just about it. SOME of our people are not APPRECIATIVE. period.
those in the past they shed bloods, lost families, friends, relatives..wealth..every single thing to let the children of Now prosper. Unfortunately we did not See and Appreciate that. we prefer to tear up some stupid posters and got suspended for nothing ..and we celebrated people who were shouting on the streets asking for Justice ..we parade those who are not doing anything but breaking apart the Soul of Brothers and Sisters...like...WTF is that? Don't these people have a-mind of their OWN to like.......THINK? I do not have to be whatever Colors there are out there ..to THINK! I GOVERN my Own Mind. simple. What does Religion mean to you, when it is making your Heart Dirty and Stink? -exactly-
and you wanna tell me it's Perjuangan? this is the part where i'd say ..Kiss my Big A*S. *smirk*
it all boils down to the reeky-facts where the same shits happen in our working environment. people are not Bright enough. by that capital B i do hope you know what am Sayin' globbie....do not read me Literally, for Cryin' out Loud. Have I been too Obvious in some ways? huhu...
It's suffocating to be in a working environment where people (ok ..excuse me...SOME PEOPLE) are big-fat pretentious liar (that's another idiom haha)
what's worse is that it involves some OTHER people who wanna do things right..follow The Book and Live happily ever after. (cewah...ko ingat ko cinderella beydah? kapish!)
On that note, I am definitely hearing Hj Rosdi at the back of my head saying "Cik Sha (dia suka benor panggil aku gini)...... Kita hidup ni manusia ada macam-macam warna, macam-macam sikap dan perangai (bila aku baru je nak buka mulut and mencapab) nanti dulu...bagi saya habis kan....( hahahhaha ) Sudah menjadi lumrah, kita di jadikan dengan pelbagai kerenah ..untuk saling melengkapi...( aku pun akan mula la berkata dalam hati ..U THINK?) saling tolong menolong.....saling nasihat menasihati (TENG! TENG! TENGGG!! ) supaya kita dapat menjadi Umat yang mendapat Redha dan Kasih ALLAH SWT (part ni aku taleh kata apa da la ..sbb confirm Betui :) )
tapi kan globbie...part Redha Allah tu betui laa...tapi manjang aku yang kene ...where got Road? ada je orang cari jalan nak kenakan nak kadambabu kan aku...because? am much lower than them? apa hengat ko bagus sangat ke? please do not think i didn't know your bad shites, all these whiles. No one knows because I...this CIK SHA is a NICE,FARKIN' KIND-HEARTED PERSON KIAH OII! i am not the leaky type who'd potpetting for no apparent reason (do notice the word APPARENT there...hihiks..apparently kisohnya kan) PLUS, bukan jenis aku nak hodohkan orang yang sudah sedia ada HODOH...reti? ko tanggung je la ngan Allah SWT...Kendian. settle.
Moral of the story, Be honest of who you are (may be not all...but to a certain degree where it won't bite u in return hehe ) No matter who you are ...how you do things around you ..Inshallah ...Allah Listens and He will Reward YOU for your Kindness and Goodwill towards People. Bersabar (although aku ni pun ilang sabar gak kadang2) and One Day you will get a much better and Rewarded Life ( jangan tanya aku HOW LONG sebab aku tau ....tu seksaaan Dunia...but trust me I've only Lived 20cents of it...and I did not plan to stop...just yet)
They can keep Tormenting us with all shites in the world ...but they Have to Answer to HIM. may be not tomorrow...but Allah Promised ..ITU PASTI.
so what if you lose it once in a while...go get some haagen daaz or a good treat of Ben & Jerry's (super Vanilla...oh yeah!) at Cold Storage, OR simply take a day ( or TWO! haha) annual leave...(like i did..today ..haha) and lazy your asssssssssssss around the house with good food...good cable tv and simplicity of life....naked! ( hahahahahah just kidding....hazab ko...kene panah petir...padan muko! hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha)
what i meant was ...go pamper yourself..do whatever you like...go bungee jump, if u can afford it ...spa...bowl...shopping retails...whatever shites u want...THEY CAN'T TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU!
WOOOHOOOO!!!!
eat your heart out sakkkaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Ngok~
salam globs ..
2 days ..of holiday weekend ...jumaat n sabtu ..aku tido mcm naga tadak gas. hahahahha siyesly aku tired and kaki aku da jadi cam elephant...sembab for no reason ...actually i knew why ...sbb aku duduk di meja ngadap komputer 24 jam sehari ...kowt...hahaha kat opis duk ataih kusi ..kat umah duk ataih kusi ...basically my blood didnt go anywhere...and aku sembab dowh...mula la panic....so MT 3 ekor ni pergi la berjimba kat al jabbar dr jisim tu ..hahaha more or less la nama dia..lupo dah aih ...we were "electrocuted" for 1 hour...hahaha sonok gak ...men sizzle kan bontot2 gajah di situ ..hahahahhaha....taleh blah when i was electrocuted by Rosy...adoi..sakit gilo...seb baik tak tekench..hahahahahhaa ..memang gilo! and that was pretty much benda aku buat...hahaha
lain2 semua tido bangun makan tido bangun makan berak! haaaaaa indah nya idup ..biarlah aku ada satu gunung kinabalu keje menunggu...file MQA lagi satu tak settle...semua aku leave it ..
pi mampos la...ada subordinate pun cam harem....
in the meantime ..i still have 12 hours to sleep. before tomorrow the doomsday comes....
BIARKANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN~
2 days ..of holiday weekend ...jumaat n sabtu ..aku tido mcm naga tadak gas. hahahahha siyesly aku tired and kaki aku da jadi cam elephant...sembab for no reason ...actually i knew why ...sbb aku duduk di meja ngadap komputer 24 jam sehari ...kowt...hahaha kat opis duk ataih kusi ..kat umah duk ataih kusi ...basically my blood didnt go anywhere...and aku sembab dowh...mula la panic....so MT 3 ekor ni pergi la berjimba kat al jabbar dr jisim tu ..hahaha more or less la nama dia..lupo dah aih ...we were "electrocuted" for 1 hour...hahaha sonok gak ...men sizzle kan bontot2 gajah di situ ..hahahahhaha....taleh blah when i was electrocuted by Rosy...adoi..sakit gilo...seb baik tak tekench..hahahahahhaa ..memang gilo! and that was pretty much benda aku buat...hahaha
lain2 semua tido bangun makan tido bangun makan berak! haaaaaa indah nya idup ..biarlah aku ada satu gunung kinabalu keje menunggu...file MQA lagi satu tak settle...semua aku leave it ..
pi mampos la...ada subordinate pun cam harem....
in the meantime ..i still have 12 hours to sleep. before tomorrow the doomsday comes....
BIARKANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN~
Friday, January 13, 2012
magic Wand
salam globs..
haish...the opening of 2012 wasn't that great for me. it's shitty. heh~ well..i dont wanna be called as ungrateful...coz in no way i meant that...i was frustrated. (or may be still am).
2012 marked the year where I found that my Trust has been Betrayed. big time. big this one Biatch. really...when it hit me first...i did pray for the worst. to be Punished upon her. but then again..its wrong to ask for such thing from Allah...
Dear Allah.. I am hurt. way to deep. I cannot pretend the case did not exist. I cannot pretend the person is not there. How am I going to walk thru it...without this hatred and sick feeling inside?
to be honest..am sick to my stomach..for whatever happens...I pray Allah Gives me Patience..(berkeping2 patience aku perlu kan buat masa ni ..) Give me Lights Ya Allah ..Give me Strength.....
I'm Weak~
haish...the opening of 2012 wasn't that great for me. it's shitty. heh~ well..i dont wanna be called as ungrateful...coz in no way i meant that...i was frustrated. (or may be still am).
2012 marked the year where I found that my Trust has been Betrayed. big time. big this one Biatch. really...when it hit me first...i did pray for the worst. to be Punished upon her. but then again..its wrong to ask for such thing from Allah...
Dear Allah.. I am hurt. way to deep. I cannot pretend the case did not exist. I cannot pretend the person is not there. How am I going to walk thru it...without this hatred and sick feeling inside?
to be honest..am sick to my stomach..for whatever happens...I pray Allah Gives me Patience..(berkeping2 patience aku perlu kan buat masa ni ..) Give me Lights Ya Allah ..Give me Strength.....
I'm Weak~
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Friday, January 6, 2012
hoish...
ngantuk!
salam ...globs...
balik je keje muka mcm tapai...turun gi keje 730am...muka aku ni mana reti pi awal ...salu aku masuk 930...ikut jam uttarpradesh! he he ...today i feel like FLIRTING. hahahahahah ...takde keje cari keje ...and MrX fell for it.
anyhow...i am still ngantuk.
esok jelajah siam...
huyyooooo!!!!
salam ...globs...
balik je keje muka mcm tapai...turun gi keje 730am...muka aku ni mana reti pi awal ...salu aku masuk 930...ikut jam uttarpradesh! he he ...today i feel like FLIRTING. hahahahahah ...takde keje cari keje ...and MrX fell for it.
anyhow...i am still ngantuk.
esok jelajah siam...
huyyooooo!!!!
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
si?
salam globs ..
di kala aku mengisi malam2 ku dengan file2 yang perlu di semak untuk graduation bebudak ni ...tetiba aku di rentap..it strikes way deep to my Heart...i don't know why sometimes people find it Hard to understand and respect other people.
living in K-state is way Different. I once thought...mungkin diri aku ni yang sudah berubah...dan aku yang perlu memahami budaya ibunda ku ...supaya aku lebih menghargai Peluang yang telah Allah berikan pada ku.
I chose to ask Allah and hidup menjadi orang Timur. kerana aku Orang Timur.. Orang Islam. tetapi ternyata ...islam di sekelilingku tidak memahami ..akan erti pengorbanan, akan erti penghormatan...akan erti sebuah kehidupan. Mungkin tidak semua....tapi yang pasti majoriti tidak memberi aku peluang untuk Bernafas, untuk Berkongsi Alam ini.... I do not understand why...I can never will...letih bila orang menyangka aku ni bukan-bukan...sedangkan aku work my ass off to live in this culture.
apalah lagi salah aku...Ya Allah dengan mereka-mereka yang tidak henti2 menghina dan mencabar ke Egoan ku....
astaghfirullahala'zeem....
di kala aku mengisi malam2 ku dengan file2 yang perlu di semak untuk graduation bebudak ni ...tetiba aku di rentap..it strikes way deep to my Heart...i don't know why sometimes people find it Hard to understand and respect other people.
living in K-state is way Different. I once thought...mungkin diri aku ni yang sudah berubah...dan aku yang perlu memahami budaya ibunda ku ...supaya aku lebih menghargai Peluang yang telah Allah berikan pada ku.
I chose to ask Allah and hidup menjadi orang Timur. kerana aku Orang Timur.. Orang Islam. tetapi ternyata ...islam di sekelilingku tidak memahami ..akan erti pengorbanan, akan erti penghormatan...akan erti sebuah kehidupan. Mungkin tidak semua....tapi yang pasti majoriti tidak memberi aku peluang untuk Bernafas, untuk Berkongsi Alam ini.... I do not understand why...I can never will...letih bila orang menyangka aku ni bukan-bukan...sedangkan aku work my ass off to live in this culture.
apalah lagi salah aku...Ya Allah dengan mereka-mereka yang tidak henti2 menghina dan mencabar ke Egoan ku....
astaghfirullahala'zeem....
Getek 101
muhahaha salam globs!
i was so getek today. i tested u-know-who with my new perfume. hahahaha and I WON! i love winning ..( when i win.. hehehe) apsal la mata aku nampak dia sangat macho dang! hahahaha i guess my eyes are blinded oredi lah with all those shites...it's a fling after all...
today awal gile masuk opes...hahaha ...as usual ada la orang2 yang terkejut " weh awal ko ari ni ?" hahah aku pun ..biasak la...da kene sound semalam khen.........." kene warning lagi aku ngan Boss..hahaha gara-gara in and out sukha hati aku yawl...muhehehe...what to do ..sapa suh buli aku..sapa suh wat aku offended..sapa suh TIDAK ADIL? hhaa...kan beta suda buat perangai....seb baik aku tak resign...cewah ..ayat taley blah...ngahahah
whatevor it is ...today is hectic. i was places. kerja byk. files to sort..pnp to check ...deadlines..one after another...somputtt....
my new pnp files belum settle...cita2 tinggi..hahaha ..aduhai...tomorrow is thursday..cepatla fridayyyyyyyyyyy....
Munduk Here i comeeeeeeeeeeee
Mintak2 la air surut ...boley perabih pitih he he
i was so getek today. i tested u-know-who with my new perfume. hahahaha and I WON! i love winning ..( when i win.. hehehe) apsal la mata aku nampak dia sangat macho dang! hahahaha i guess my eyes are blinded oredi lah with all those shites...it's a fling after all...
today awal gile masuk opes...hahaha ...as usual ada la orang2 yang terkejut " weh awal ko ari ni ?" hahah aku pun ..biasak la...da kene sound semalam khen.........." kene warning lagi aku ngan Boss..hahaha gara-gara in and out sukha hati aku yawl...muhehehe...what to do ..sapa suh buli aku..sapa suh wat aku offended..sapa suh TIDAK ADIL? hhaa...kan beta suda buat perangai....seb baik aku tak resign...cewah ..ayat taley blah...ngahahah
whatevor it is ...today is hectic. i was places. kerja byk. files to sort..pnp to check ...deadlines..one after another...somputtt....
my new pnp files belum settle...cita2 tinggi..hahaha ..aduhai...tomorrow is thursday..cepatla fridayyyyyyyyyyy....
Munduk Here i comeeeeeeeeeeee
Mintak2 la air surut ...boley perabih pitih he he
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
2012
salam globs!
huyeah~ it's finally here and am another year older...huhu and i have a new 2012 fling! believe it or not it happens so fast...and I can't believe it still...whaddaya know...Allah is Forgiving and Fulfilling ..HE got rid of nuisance ..and replaced with...ensem! hahahahahah However ....it is not meant to be permanent ..as I think it is just my temporary bonus.....a new year ..fling...heheheheh
he is Sweet, Romantic ( in his own way) and Charming. Indeed~ hahahaha I love this Feeling. Thank You Allah. You Know me Best! aja!
today the management announced the salary increment. i'm happy? no...bershukur ...Yezza...
i have been getting good momentum lately...Ya Allah ...can You keep it Coming? :)
Loving it.
huyeah~ it's finally here and am another year older...huhu and i have a new 2012 fling! believe it or not it happens so fast...and I can't believe it still...whaddaya know...Allah is Forgiving and Fulfilling ..HE got rid of nuisance ..and replaced with...ensem! hahahahahah However ....it is not meant to be permanent ..as I think it is just my temporary bonus.....a new year ..fling...heheheheh
he is Sweet, Romantic ( in his own way) and Charming. Indeed~ hahahaha I love this Feeling. Thank You Allah. You Know me Best! aja!
today the management announced the salary increment. i'm happy? no...bershukur ...Yezza...
i have been getting good momentum lately...Ya Allah ...can You keep it Coming? :)
Loving it.
Monday, December 26, 2011
Sweetster Park Memory
Dear Bunny:
Happy Birthday. Will Always be part of You ..that Neither the Two of Us can Forget.
From : 8th Wonder.
Happy Birthday. Will Always be part of You ..that Neither the Two of Us can Forget.
From : 8th Wonder.
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Cringed.
salam globs!
did ever occur to u that one day ...your past just ...simply make a turn ..and it points at ..YOU! ha ha ...i got my version juz now. ..like in less than 30 minutes.....OH ..my PIZZA! seriously ..i didnt expect its going to be that ... ( i dont even have a word to describe it ) but ..yes, it hit me dowh~
luckily i juz got my freedom! from my never ending piles of books and papers. so was i really hit? hihihihi........all i can say..........EAT-YOUR-HEART-OUT-SAKKKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!
oh man! so this is what it feels like ..WINNING? nguahaahahah oh woman! ...if ONLY all women out there can feel This? betcha...they'd walked out straight up...and make those days...and kick their asses...
Merry Christmas to all Christian friends..
as for me?
I Won! and Mudcrab maggie is already on me Mind ....plus had a Great Dinner @ KengSom's with Family. I WON! muhahahahaha~
did ever occur to u that one day ...your past just ...simply make a turn ..and it points at ..YOU! ha ha ...i got my version juz now. ..like in less than 30 minutes.....OH ..my PIZZA! seriously ..i didnt expect its going to be that ... ( i dont even have a word to describe it ) but ..yes, it hit me dowh~
luckily i juz got my freedom! from my never ending piles of books and papers. so was i really hit? hihihihi........all i can say..........EAT-YOUR-HEART-OUT-SAKKKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!
oh man! so this is what it feels like ..WINNING? nguahaahahah oh woman! ...if ONLY all women out there can feel This? betcha...they'd walked out straight up...and make those days...and kick their asses...
Merry Christmas to all Christian friends..
as for me?
I Won! and Mudcrab maggie is already on me Mind ....plus had a Great Dinner @ KengSom's with Family. I WON! muhahahahaha~
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Music of My Heart
salam globs!
i slept my day thru. hehehe ...kunun contemplate to wake up early and study. to my sangkarable not-surprised sangat....i woke up and checked on my movie download! haha and DONE it was ...I was so excited...teeth unbrushed, face like kejung ...quickly selected my playlist...and BAM! - A Christmass Kiss (2011) movie ngaaa :) I knew I wont be able to watch its premier on Hallmark's. Hence the early upload. Well..am in malaysia...so not-so early ...it has already been aired in the states.
half of my morning was really.. "wasted" hahahahahah...but ..it was good vibe...reminiscing ..over years and years of memories. it was ..Cold ...brutally Cold inside. *sigh* ....next~
then ..i decided to read my book n notes on The Bed. ya la kan...like i know meself in two days...i slept by the 30th seconds ...? hahahahah gile tido tak hengat...woke up around 4. showered ...and lapaq ....then i thought of my parcels ..and ijat!! it's her literally last day in the office today.
hoisgh...she was busy clearing when i called to ask her out for early dinner at zakini. a kid who now has turned into a woman. she bloomed alright. and i do hope she learns more and gains more in the long run ....she deserves this break. the chance to infiltrate herself with knowledge and love. Love of a being a human and salivating brains out ...for a lil wisdom. Wisdom of Life. or dengan mudah dan radikal ..bunyi nya equivalent to ..da'wah and Tarbiyyah....
I have never felt right ..typing or mentioning those words. Feels a bit odd...out of place...at times. huhu....
i went to see the office ...it was half empty....we did many things together...especially with ELAC. The ELAC that has crushed out our pains n bitterness to the last drop. ELAC that hold too many memories with them. ELAC that is Everything to us...( at least to me...it was obvious)
Now, i am teamless. I have no team mate. zero. i feel like am on this Huge island ...all by myself. again. Working in this line requires gazillions of passion...miles and miles of Heart. sometimes, it Drains you out. when am on That Island. oh yeah..It Drains alrite. Hence, the decision on deactivating ELAC and tries to work on the current program, build their confidence, work on the discipline board (at least till february 2012) , mentoring the students ...on Advisory board....juz like 2006. :)
Oh well....it has been a fun Ride.
spread your wings and prepare to Fly.
i slept my day thru. hehehe ...kunun contemplate to wake up early and study. to my sangkarable not-surprised sangat....i woke up and checked on my movie download! haha and DONE it was ...I was so excited...teeth unbrushed, face like kejung ...quickly selected my playlist...and BAM! - A Christmass Kiss (2011) movie ngaaa :) I knew I wont be able to watch its premier on Hallmark's. Hence the early upload. Well..am in malaysia...so not-so early ...it has already been aired in the states.
half of my morning was really.. "wasted" hahahahahah...but ..it was good vibe...reminiscing ..over years and years of memories. it was ..Cold ...brutally Cold inside. *sigh* ....next~
then ..i decided to read my book n notes on The Bed. ya la kan...like i know meself in two days...i slept by the 30th seconds ...? hahahahah gile tido tak hengat...woke up around 4. showered ...and lapaq ....then i thought of my parcels ..and ijat!! it's her literally last day in the office today.
hoisgh...she was busy clearing when i called to ask her out for early dinner at zakini. a kid who now has turned into a woman. she bloomed alright. and i do hope she learns more and gains more in the long run ....she deserves this break. the chance to infiltrate herself with knowledge and love. Love of a being a human and salivating brains out ...for a lil wisdom. Wisdom of Life. or dengan mudah dan radikal ..bunyi nya equivalent to ..da'wah and Tarbiyyah....
I have never felt right ..typing or mentioning those words. Feels a bit odd...out of place...at times. huhu....
i went to see the office ...it was half empty....we did many things together...especially with ELAC. The ELAC that has crushed out our pains n bitterness to the last drop. ELAC that hold too many memories with them. ELAC that is Everything to us...( at least to me...it was obvious)
Now, i am teamless. I have no team mate. zero. i feel like am on this Huge island ...all by myself. again. Working in this line requires gazillions of passion...miles and miles of Heart. sometimes, it Drains you out. when am on That Island. oh yeah..It Drains alrite. Hence, the decision on deactivating ELAC and tries to work on the current program, build their confidence, work on the discipline board (at least till february 2012) , mentoring the students ...on Advisory board....juz like 2006. :)
Oh well....it has been a fun Ride.
spread your wings and prepare to Fly.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Fly high Anchovy
salam globs!huu..that's Anchovy in pink...or known by birth Izzati...or Ijat to many ..and Anchovy to us ..ELACians...
it's well-known farewell to many now that Anchovy is leaving for her post graduate study in Shah Alam and will be hibernating in Seremban for a month or so. huhu ...Many management officers asked me ..when is your registration date...and I said ..dunno. I lied. :) hahahhaha dang girl....if they know..betcha they'd hold u up...again....*must be nice kan ...people dont want to let someone go, hahaha wait til my turn....they'd throw confetties ..PISH! PISH!* hahahahaha
anyhow ..dont worry. i will definitely make time to see you off...not because i am celebrating you leaving ...it's just that i didnt get to spend our last week in the office together due to my exam dates. there's a slight hollow inside for not being able to laugh in the cubicle for the last time *well...last for 2 years* haha ....and for not being able to cook that tempe pedas second round for u ...oh well there's so many things I need to do to wish u farewell..but i didnt get to do all...sorry banyak. i'll try to make it up to u..in 2 years time then? he he :D tah i idup lagi tidak masa tu ...
I wish u all the best in grad school, kick ass! and enjoy college life again. whenever u get to eat better chicken chops! do brag it to me...hahahaha ...
till 2013, cheers mate! thank you for putting up with me ...all these years.
Jazakillahikhairankhatiraaa....for ALL.
Day 3
hi globs!
Salam...
sometimes ure up ...sometimes (although i wish to type all-the-time) ure down~ sigh..that's the beauty of life. i saw his face today...no...no...not his face...his words...i still miss him..like..4%, he he ...how did i know ..coz i still remember his favorites...susah kan...jadi robot kan senang..ingat bateri je nak idup...
I'm praying for Allah to take that 4% back. I want to forget. thinking or reminiscing ..will only bring tears to my heart...
oh ya...i bought new perfume...takde keje ..prabih duit...ho ho ho...been waiting for it for so long...Bloom is in my hands....suker! and i plan to lay low ..til 2012 ..hoyeah...a year where I wish everything will turn out GREEN...or gold ..perhaps? heee :)
i learn a lot about friendship this year. like so different from what i had previously..and it is uberly shaken inside with all sorts of galores of mixed feelings. hmm macam mixed research gitew nyah...hu hu...
the best thing of knowing a person, is to NOT put too much Faith in believing. coz when you're Hurt....it's way...d.e.e.p.
i guess experiencing that in this kinda weakened dinasour age...frustrates me a lot. let's just say I wish too much for what a human can accept a friend for. and that too much...is denigrating the part of my so called life...- trust.
It's quite remorseful to be in such situation, but hey this is World. It aint over till the Almighty high above Sings?? oh well..that is just an expression, do read my between-the-lines if you really want to understand me. Alas, I wasnt demanding either. After all, I ain't perfect Either. hai loh~
there's a lot of issues for me to write in here ..but i guess i didnt want to sound ...biatchy. hehe :)
i better go to sleep.
carpe diem~
Salam...
sometimes ure up ...sometimes (although i wish to type all-the-time) ure down~ sigh..that's the beauty of life. i saw his face today...no...no...not his face...his words...i still miss him..like..4%, he he ...how did i know ..coz i still remember his favorites...susah kan...jadi robot kan senang..ingat bateri je nak idup...
I'm praying for Allah to take that 4% back. I want to forget. thinking or reminiscing ..will only bring tears to my heart...
oh ya...i bought new perfume...takde keje ..prabih duit...ho ho ho...been waiting for it for so long...Bloom is in my hands....suker! and i plan to lay low ..til 2012 ..hoyeah...a year where I wish everything will turn out GREEN...or gold ..perhaps? heee :)
i learn a lot about friendship this year. like so different from what i had previously..and it is uberly shaken inside with all sorts of galores of mixed feelings. hmm macam mixed research gitew nyah...hu hu...
the best thing of knowing a person, is to NOT put too much Faith in believing. coz when you're Hurt....it's way...d.e.e.p.
i guess experiencing that in this kinda weakened dinasour age...frustrates me a lot. let's just say I wish too much for what a human can accept a friend for. and that too much...is denigrating the part of my so called life...- trust.
It's quite remorseful to be in such situation, but hey this is World. It aint over till the Almighty high above Sings?? oh well..that is just an expression, do read my between-the-lines if you really want to understand me. Alas, I wasnt demanding either. After all, I ain't perfect Either. hai loh~
there's a lot of issues for me to write in here ..but i guess i didnt want to sound ...biatchy. hehe :)
i better go to sleep.
carpe diem~
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Dunia Dunia..
salam globs!
today my life is so upside down! kisah nya ..aku dah panic. .sbb aku tersalah tgk dates! minggu ni starting ahad sampai jumaat aku exam! and aku ada classes yang aku made everyone promised to attend sbb aku tak nak skip weeks...hahaha mampuih dan minggu ni jugak sharmin nak hantar sales utk eclairs and chicken pie.. mampuihhhhhhhhhhh
so tadi ..with thick skin ..i had to brace myself to let sharmin know about my mistake...that i have forgotten its my exam week!
i studied 3 chapters out of 10!! gile dok? bengong tul..one whole day .. I couldnt focus. my panic is attacking me inside. slowly. aiyoooooooooooh.....
i dropped by the office to check on my notes and assignment to be delivered to class by ijat...PUN to no avail....* talk about screwing up life real baddddddddddd...*
last but not least aku tolong orang order barang online ...hoigsh....takde keje tul..! bengong...
now ...i wish i am married to tengku muhammad faris ..so i do not have to think of all THESE!! huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Ya Allah ....please save my night....give me Strength for tomorrow...and kekalkan la ilmu dalam kepala otak ku yang senget ini..>Amin...ya Rabbal A'lameeeenn..........
serabut je ..Kawin..serabut je Kawin! ...ingat senang ke?!
today my life is so upside down! kisah nya ..aku dah panic. .sbb aku tersalah tgk dates! minggu ni starting ahad sampai jumaat aku exam! and aku ada classes yang aku made everyone promised to attend sbb aku tak nak skip weeks...hahaha mampuih dan minggu ni jugak sharmin nak hantar sales utk eclairs and chicken pie.. mampuihhhhhhhhhhh
so tadi ..with thick skin ..i had to brace myself to let sharmin know about my mistake...that i have forgotten its my exam week!
i studied 3 chapters out of 10!! gile dok? bengong tul..one whole day .. I couldnt focus. my panic is attacking me inside. slowly. aiyoooooooooooh.....
i dropped by the office to check on my notes and assignment to be delivered to class by ijat...PUN to no avail....* talk about screwing up life real baddddddddddd...*
last but not least aku tolong orang order barang online ...hoigsh....takde keje tul..! bengong...
now ...i wish i am married to tengku muhammad faris ..so i do not have to think of all THESE!! huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Ya Allah ....please save my night....give me Strength for tomorrow...and kekalkan la ilmu dalam kepala otak ku yang senget ini..>Amin...ya Rabbal A'lameeeenn..........
serabut je ..Kawin..serabut je Kawin! ...ingat senang ke?!
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