Sunday, August 31, 2008
It is a relief, indeed. To finally get the answer for a question that has been pondering my mind coupla months back. it's positive. Alhamdulillah..that is His Blessing for His devoted servant.
Me? I'm glad. I do not have to look for 'that' tunnel (hehehe..) I am not even surprised at all to hear (or should I say ..to read the news hoho..Alhamdulillah...)
The gradual calmness You're Giving me is seeping in..Dear God...THANK YOU.
What next ? China? or Bali? I think it's time for me to "go" out. Or ..may be Australia? I haven't seen my aunt for so long. Abg Mad and family from loqstaq came for a visit during the Merdeka weekend. It has been a long time since I "left" Kedah. After Abah's demise, there was no reasons for me to return. There was no one. That's how I felt. When I saw them last night, I still have family over there... I still do.
May be for a start, this year's annual trip would be going back to Kedah. How about that..I have been missing my childhood anyway.. maybe that could be a good start ...
Having few good friends around is soothing. Alhamdulillah ..Allah Shares that with me. Syukur Alhamdulillah..
Ramadhan is approaching, and I just can't wait ..
Have a wonderful Ramadhan people...Love and Embrace...
Saturday, August 30, 2008
I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.
Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.
The waves beside them danced, but they
Out-did the sparkling leaves in glee;
A poet could not be but gay,
In such a jocund company!
I gazed—and gazed—but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:
For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.
imagine the sound ...and THAT is how I am at the moment. bombed, crashed..and all myriads of negativity inside.. hmm...I'm simply V.U.L.N.E.R.A.B.L.E
I hung out with Pet last nite at KBmall. Earlier on I had threw up and decided to cancel our dinner. I washed my lisa and keep on scrubbing till i almost scratched her skin..hehe..poor thing. Poor me. As I was trying to "scratch" the past from my memory. I had planned the dinner few weeks back, and it wasn't easy trying to catch up with our schedules. Thanks to the "problem" my.. MY dinner had to be cancelled. my chum chum dinner...
SO many things are on my mind. no matter how many gazillion times i sigh...it won't go away. hmmm..apart from Pet, Nor is also back in town for merdeka weekend, I didnt get the chance to meet up. We normally love the beach and afternoon ayaq nyioq at PCB. May be I should try that this afternoon...
what Pet said ..made sense..however, I am still sighing.....haaaaaa............
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
What a tiring day. Sometimes I wonder...is this the right choice? :) Not that I'm regretting it...it just came across my mind ...is it really how this world is?
I am not expecting miracles in this line of work. But I do hope and pray Allah SWT is always by myside. I came out from today's Liqa with plethora of thoughts in my head. One of it is...My relationship with Allah SWT, The Creator, The Almighty, The Everything. HE gave me Bunny when I needed Love most. He took him back when it's time. Then, I complained. Now, I realized...Now..I truly understand...NOW ...I believe...even more..
Monday, August 25, 2008
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
My time management skill is being tested when I'm still stucked with that report. yes ..for you out there who knew what was the report about ...YES I am STILL not done with that report... I have 2 reports to finish BY THE WAY ...and as usual ...me and me and me and me AND...ME.
Tomorrow will be off for the must-go PnP workshop. In Pantai Cahaya Bulan..Perdana Resort..hmmm..beach..course..beach..course..COCONUT!!! kakanoot ..as Aki usually says it ...
Back to teaching-licious moment! yarrrshhh!
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
So many things occured and am flat. not dead...but FLAT.
Despite all the things going upside down in my life, I had to move forward. It's agonizing. At one time, I felt like stopping the time and locked myself in a capsule.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Although, it's an honor ( though I have no clue on what will I be seeing or should I say WHO will I be meeting..) Once in a while I chuckled when I thought of it. Goodness Gracious ..ME? ( I know! I still can't believe it.... deal with it haha) Again, I'd daresay It's an absolute honor to be able to meet new groups of people (or Free Food as Fadhli was rephrasing it for me...how cruel...) Ok, before I keep yapping let's checkout the primary objectives of THE event..
- to gather and unite all Muslim entrepreneurs in various industries and expertise ( this is where I don't mostly fit in *lol*) to generate a rocklike (huh?) ummah's economy.
- to create an international information network for Muslim entrepreneurs ( I always dislike spelling this word...OMG...)
- to serve as platform for Islamic business transaction ( this is cool.....to me....yeah...hush..hush..)
Frankly speaking, where entrepreneurs are concern, I'm nowhere near the field. I suxx at business-like ..stuffs (see..didn't I tell u...) IT is my brother's and sister's field. I can picture myself having the hardest time ever to digest all the information and "exchanging thoughts" session, let's just hope I didn't make a fool out of myself...(or others...he he he..)
This more or less similar to what I attended in New England back then on the honor of Dr Khattak's invitation. It was a wonderful event. Surrounded by extensive Muslims from all parts of the world. I mean that was really awsome..(and the Baklava too....well..one gotta eat, right?)
Let's just pray I don't screw up. Thing about me doing the write up for K.E is that, I knew how particular he is (meticulous? heee ...I call it professionalism). Working for K.E in some matters freak me. To hear him suggesting MY name ..was concurrently exhilarating and shocking! I have this so called K.E-phobic thingy... not that I did things that contradict him, it's just the expectation and the must-push-to-all-limits, the u-can-do-it Sha! (yeah baby!) *grins*
Anyhow, we'll see how it goes, if you're lucky, there will be some images.. (IF..)
Monday, August 4, 2008
I stopped taking photos of my cats long time ago. Keeping pictorial memories hurt (to me) I know some would find me freaky for bonding with animals, though I find it very peaceful and comforting to be surrounded by animals. This entry is a tribute to my endless loves of my "companions" previous, current and future....