Oh..where art Thou...

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wofsha is having a spectacular day today. I went to work Late this morning because ...my tudung tak jadi. hahahaha I know it sounded sooooo...crazy...and unacceptable....but hey ...that's what happened. *lol* I can be so idiotically crazy...at times hehehe. I will NOT leave the room until I am satisfied with my tudung. ha ha ha Even if I have to cancel a class or presentation ! hahaha except a frikkin-da bomb-job-interview (I probably get ready in my sleep so I could wake up on time! hahahaahah)

*sigh...* I was invited by Bic-mate: - Esi, to become secondary panel for Electronic Engineering's Microprocessor Project Presentation. It was fun...full of circuits and wires...but No gorgeous looking men...( what A pity...) hehehe...I better not have my Boss reading this!

Tonight ...off I go to (another) session with the students. I had lunch at 3pm...rushed to another session (started at 3pm!) felt like throwing up outside of the class...and then here I am pouring my heart out to uolls...at 6pm ....my life is on the rock at the moment ...I don't have fixed schedules (anymore...) huwaaaa.....I miss my Life.....gimme back!!! givvit...givvit....

Cikgu Hussaini: project chicken pie dah masuk dalam perut ...hehehe kenyang Alhamdulillah...bahan2 nya sempoi aje ..cara nya pun mudah ....cara paling tidak rajin ...cumanya puff pastry ..sha udah beli siap2 ...kat tesco ..hohoh promote haram plak kat sineh....masukkan filling dalam ramekin ..then ...cover with pastry kat atas ....200 degrees...dalam 20-30minutes..sampai puffed tu ...PUFF! then nikmati lah ....dengan penuh suka-suki ala Ary yang sedang terKULAI itew...(nak jugak ngusik dak kecik sowang neh..huhuhu ..sorry bebeh...)

U win Some, U Lose some

CONGRATULATION SELANGOR!

Assalamualaikum bloggie...
I'm neither a fan for both. Do bear in Mind. *lol* But it's a Blessing in Disguise when Kelantan did not win last night. Lesson learned people ...thou shalt not be Rude and Disrespect Others.
Btw, the trophy is Gigantic....size Really does matter to Some...muhehehehe....

Enough about that...

Am so sleepy. Couldn't sleep well last night coz I got meself stucked on TV3 movie - Head Over Heels. Predominantly cute and hilarious. I wouldn't mind having housemates like 'em. haha...at least berseri sikit dunia ...after coming home from boisterous world out there :) - kelez...
My sunday schedy is pretty much cleared (yay!) coz it's Reading Week! Alhamdulillah....lega a bit ...and I will have ample and auspicious days and spaces to look forward to. (jangan laa ada sebarang gangguan ....Amin) Finishing up 2 more markings and I'll be ready for coursework prep. Bicmate is fully au fait with her exams tabling and I guess everyone is pretty much occupied.

I'm smiling alone...hermm..Chicken Pie Project...voila! that will be occupying me alrite, and will see Pek off before she leaves. I didn't even have the time to hang out with her this time. She's painstakingly busy at her home and with her other bosom buddies. :) *gleefully* oh well..there's always next time inshaAllah ...

to Farah: good luck with the Check up ...my Prayers are always with you. Less menteke-ing, okay.... *winkies*

Of Soccer and AF7

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I am wickedly torn between those 2. dah le kelantan main tonite. Which I didnt fancy much THANKS to the "genius" provokers in the stadium the other nite. Luckily I wasn't there. else...eiii...geram and frustrated. I wonder ...what will happen tonite if KELANTAN lost? hahahaa jangan le terbakar bukit jalil plak ....why la ..suka sangat jadi JURUbakar neh...alkisahnyaaa ...I can't watch Live show on AF tonite... not that am head over heels...but I like the way Acis turns the arrangement around ..fresher and cooler.Uber-awesome! Yet, I can't watch it...

Since I can't watch Both...I precariously look for lappy and here i am ...bloggin-rawkin sorang diri macam ...tah haper haper....sekali ...ntah from nowhere...lagu CT kluaq!olooohhhhh jiwangggg nyooo lagu gapo nihhhh...that was the first thing come to my mind ....it sounded sooooo phantom of the opera kinda piece....umakkk aiiii.....goosebumps!

heheehe...then I thought of Andy ..my once-upon-a-time-goose-pet. *sigh*

So many things...in my mind and the skies are awfully dark tonite. *I miss stargazing...*

800/1, 800/3, 800/4

Assalamualaikum bloggie ....

Those are not the nombor tikam-tikam ek ...That's the paper codes for today. The ones I have been so worried of...(heh?) hehehehe....


I'm glad I managed to give them the last minute words ...the last huddle...I wasn't prepared for it though. 'coz normally when I give pep talks ...they're too used to my styles....when I opted not to ...they were the ones who'd said " cik sha ...any last words before we go in ...?" - eiii korang ni kan ....bila am not emotionally prepared suka jee tau ..buat request ...hengat ni radioshow ka ...



As blunt as I was at that time ...I went "ok huddle up..[paused] Ingat Allah. (and there were some faces like that's it?) nanti laaa...i belum habis cakap lagi ...don't give me That Look...duhhhh. You have worked damn hard for this, you've tortured me with so many vocabs searching...you've done things you'd never thought you did, Tawakkal ...serah pada Dia ...Feel Him inside you ...focus and Only He will Help you in your darkest moment-Just Him. Believe."



and everyone went ...silent...hemm...ok...then si along suddenly blurted out "yes I'm the best!" hahahahaha...everyone was laughing spontaneously...*i was holding my tears ...freaks hehe*





Ary is absolutely right. God will Strengthen and Help you. HE'd Helped them alright...the 2nd paper was Alhamdulilllah...the topics have been extensively discussed prior to this ...and Dengan IzinNya too, Listening paper was smooth though there were several technical problems...Hopefully everything will turn out fine for them ...inshaAllah.

The Bliss in Life is not Where we are Standing ...it's Where we are Heading...

Exam ..lagi

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I slept at 3am this morning. why? -nervous!my students will be sitting for their muet exam today. huk alohhhh...they are my graduating seniors ....my first graduating batch...it's a bit personal to me 'coz they are quite close with me. too much if i say I love them? - :) heeeee... (pathetic romantic .....ye la tau laaaa.......)

I waited outside the Hall until the exam commenced. I was supposed to be in Terengganu this weekend for a quick (another) getaway....but I postponed all schedules. Many thanks to them who keep asking "Cik Sha ...ciksha ada tak pagi tu kat dewan ...." kalau dah patbelas kali duk tanya soalan yang sama......pepaham la tu kan ....eventho they knew way beforehand I wont be there....huh....truth is ...if I were to Leave ...I won't be at ease either....so ...kensel la ....pepagi buta tadi kul 7 ....terpacak la haku kat Dewan Wawasan yang tak seberapa-gah itewww.....

As gigantic as I could be (dalam byk2 hari ...ari ni ler..aku muka bengis gengis khan skit ...hahahahahah) semua invigilators kat situ thought I was the observer from PPD! hahahahaha...kelako giler...."cik ni memantau ke " dengan selamba kodoknya I was ... "Ye saya " - muhahahahahahahahaha (guilty as charged! - i know.....ain't my fault...) outta nowhere ...the Man there started to explain to me why this isn't there ....that wasn't here ....I was holding my laughter -BIG TIME inside ....at the same time praying ..."jangan laa orang PPD datang ..masak haku weyyy" kah kah kah kah I maintained my straight face.

I should have worn The Shoes! (diam ary....)

10.47 am- I went to the Dewan again ...this time I received complaints from the students ...the invigilators were talking! and it frikkin' disturbed the students concentration to read those lengthy texts and confusing answers. hermmpphss...i was a bit furious ...when it comes to invigilation ethics. Dah la datang lambat ....flow lembap, aircond breakdown...aiighh....nampak nya there will be a vicious formal letter SOON to MPM. Real ...soon...

Forgive me for being choosy people....I have nothing against Takdir...but if it's man-made-foreseeable-mistakes, not'ot tolerating.period.

if their daughters or sons were in those shoes ....would they have liked it? - Go Figure...

Panick Attack

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I am currently invigilating an internal exam (and wiFi-ing). What an un-ethical thing to do. hehehe I got really bored coz of this gassy feeling inside ( thanks to my protein drink this morning!). I got myself fully bloated with that hard-to-get-rid-off GAS inside. I nearly hit the dustbin off which I surely can't fit myself in ..(luckily!)

Then, I simultaneously decided to kick off this exam with blogging! hehe...am trying very hard to stay conscious in this room. The students have been studying and preparing very hard for this. They deserve a pat on their shoulders...yet I still cannot convince them to be FULLY confident with themselves. They get easily influenced by other students' word of mouth and 'senior dulu cakap' -story....oigghhh....I already have angin in my badan ...still want to make me hangen sato badan ka....yennadeii....

The Rule of Thumb to Release your anxiety...

• Take the Deepest breath EVER.....in......out.....
• Think of a nice place you've been.....(if it's a free paid vacation..even better!)
• Ask yourself " I have come this far...why da hell should i bail?!"
• Think of the good thing if you pull this one through, rewards, bonus, increment...etc
• Do you deserve to succeed after ALL those hardworks? - Hell YEAH!

• The best thing in life when you manage to pull through the obstacles is UNDESCRIBABLE. No one can tell you ...what HAPPY is. ONLY YOU will know what is it Like. Therefore, WALK this path through and Find that Light in every Tunnels you are in!

Live to tell your own story of Success and Inspire many others to unfold their Pandora's and share the Confettis of Life with the Mankind.
GOD BLESS!

merci beaucoup

Assalamualaikum bloggie...

These are the awards I received from Ary, my new, funky and funtastic (sometimes dia melodramatic jugak hehe) blogger friend. Thank you ....very much for the acknowledgement ...for the pleasure of having you and some of your friends as my blogging-friends. Mucho Gracias!

I will treasure this warmth gestures bestowed upon me ....

:)

Living and Kickin'

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I have partially recovered from the injury ....Alhamdulillahh...tho I can't write as much as before ...coz it hasn't fully healed....I'm glad I can resume my classes and presentations.

Today my buddy ..nor ..from putrajaya came back for a short break. It's gonna be ...less boring ...than last week ..as I got company to hu-ha. hehehehe

Earlier at the cafe, my colleague and I managed to snap photos ...while waiting for our yummylicious meals .....

Warm people with warm hearts. heh?

wofsha Sprained her Left Hand

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what a month..i would say ....with an unfinished rct...and impacted wisdom tooth ..last week..i sprained my left wrist and my thumb looked like a giant crooked ginger. what ..a dugaan...i presumed.. I went for traditional urut...and it was wickedly painful. i was holding to the chair and clutching my teeth hard....trying as much as i could not to ..cry :)

now it's sorta "fixed" but i cant fully utilised my left hand yet...i was told to give it a rest...for a week or so ...and guess what ..am a lefty ..so there goes my Life. even while typing am using my right hand..awkwardly and my "middle" finger to tab on the board. huwaa.....so pelik one...

and my Mencandat Sotong plan has to be postponed! :( huwaaaaaaaa...I have been looking forward to that......

Going shopping wouldn't hurt a finger ...would it? *evil....evil....*

Puzzle of Life

Assalamualaikum bloggie......

these are among the photos I ve captured last months. I did not have the time to upload and edit. Both of my Acad Comm have presented their FT in a form of casual sketch and serious ala-Gaza concept. What I admire is their commitment to show up ...tho the rain was wickedly heavy that night.

I love Human. Freezin 'em up in the memorystick is like ..putting a stop to Time. Immaculate. I Like. Without further a due...here they are ...

Those faces and efforts will always be treasured. I did "masuk kampung" too with my multicultural research. I took the opportunity to snap some photos of tomorrow's generation...I call it ..the Juxtaposition of big and SMALL. :) - A Dream shall be Realised, A Dream to Begin.

This primary school is located in an undeniably remote area in this small town. The route is like winding and never ends. The institution houses the local community in the area. It ONLY has A nearly-hittin-the-ground brick block,the so called original building. The looking-kinda-new yellow stilty building in the above photo is the computer lab, built recently. Notice the height? yess....it's flood prone area. There are about 260++ pupils. Imagine. and it's surrounded by pokok kelapak....and all sorts of woods. In a glance, it looks so peaceful from far, on 2nd thought, hey this is the Sekolah Kebangsaan ya know ....what went wrong? Don't these people here deserve a far-better-decent facilities and infrastructure? Come on people....Due to certain unavoidable circumstances I shall not disclose the name of the school. After ALL these years, they are finally being granted for new building blocks. It's currently under construction...in 2009...(yeah......better than nothing? is it ....?) I wonder how those children were back then...

Such a Pity...

seeing the generation of tomorrow in..god knows what ...am speechless. I stood in the compound watching those little faces talking and laughing with their classmates, with those bulky, heavy haji bags...heading out from the school after a long day in class. My lense was merely numbed ...as well as my thoughts....though not my smiles....the ONLY thing I could afford to give them at that moment. Behind the lenses....tears were rollin down my cheeks, Don't ask me why ..Coz I don't even know why ....I feel sorry ....sad...happy...touched by their gestures who were gazing at me as if I was this huge alien-press with a camera at hand. Drowned in my own thoughts, I snapped Aliff's photo....and Abe ..that montel boy...as he referred himself to.

Looking at these two different worlds...my students who seems to have all ...and those who are still struggling in primary's....have invoked so much thoughts and senses inside.

Though I was there mainly for my writeups, I got to see more than papers. I saw humans, with miles and miles of Hearts....I saw Locals who are continously in support of their children and the education system...I saw a community that is seeking for A chance to see their posterity swim out to the sea...as far as the currents and tides can bring ....and may One day ..triumphantly return to The Root.

Teeth Evolution

Assalamualaikum bloggie ...

I haven't been able to update this as often as before ....I apologize to my dear friends in here. Although, I managed to keep in touch ..catching up reading a few of thems.

After I came back ( actually was summoned back) from Kuala Terengganu, I was tied up with Majlis Anugerah with Menteri Besar (penat haku gubah rose corsette kat dia..senget plak jadinya..argghhh) and being the welcoming committee leader (out of nowhere) had put me into haywired-days. I took the job ...reluctantly pissed. Oigh..why me? Since it's not something that I savor ...therefore ..I didn't snap my personal photo. Somehow I think the tech department has all the copies. Nanti le ...wofsha tengokkan...

At the same time I was vigorously suffering with my RCT tooth ( which doesn't seem to heal) Somehow the infection is still there..hussaini ... :( Yesterday DNH open up to check and seal it ...again ...my prayers weren't enough I supposed, there's still tiny weenie ..spot somewhere inside there...which hasn't healed. There I was back with temporary filling and by now I think I knew vast terms and knowledge of periodontical-ogy (hahaha) I am soo damn famous in that department ...practically ..every nurses there has memorized my name ..and LOOK ( oh well..whines...hahahha)

And I have new Masalah:- WISDOM TOOTH! - it's impacted! Dear God....banyakknya dugaan aku....ingatkan all these whiles..dah banyak ...so there goes another one .....muhasabah..muhasabah...sabar...and more sabar....

macam tu la lebih kurang ...gambar xray tu ...DNH tak kasik ...it's a burden to my oral hygiene coz the gum is somewhat flabbily half covering its way out. Summary dia DNH kata " I'll schedule you for full oral x-ray and surgery...yeah....HUH???!!! SURGERY!!!!!! WHAT??!!!
TIDAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK...huwaaaa thing that I fear most ....huuu......

Kesimpulan dia ..I'm anxious, scared...SEGALAnya ..RCT pun blum selesai ..now am shaken with another news... :( *sedey*

p/s: ary...sha takut ..actually..hehehe coz the procedure byk pakei anaesthesia...and melibatkan roots of tooth n nerve....ish...seriau la bro....

wofsha in Kuala Terengganu

Assalamualaikum bloggie...

I just came back from my get away in KT and I have plan for May! Pesta Mencandat Sotong!!! Guess what ..no photos AT ALL because I was really tired from the driving and bullying of my friends' children. Imagine...an 11 years old boy ..went into frantic tantrum ..of wanting to sleep WITH ME! of all people ...a BOY? crazy about me? and then an 8 year-old girl ...who refused to let me leave her house. Crying and screaming like a tarzan....adoiiii......I basically had a under-age obsessed Week!

I do not have photos for all those...how terrible I am .. I KNOW. Truthfully, I left home with a broken and tired Heart, i just stashed the bag in the backseat n drove to KT.

It was exhilirating and fun plus...should be a rejuvenating moment.