The M ....again

salam globbie ..

half of my morning was spent on being a defense lawyer. with red eyes.
to be honest..am tired of being lawyer..but i am left with no option. if i didnt help them ..who would? after all it is partially my job to ensure they are ...assisted? hurgh...i dont know globbie...

i am sleepy and tired from today. my prof adviced me to sleep early..like at 10pm..till 2am..and wake up for tahajjud at 3 onwards....haigh....betui ka aku ni globbie.....

today too marked the day where prof spoke of marriage lagi...aigh...tak larat nak explain of why am still un-married at this point of time...
globbie..aku rindu kampung emers...aku rindu tune bagels...aku rindu salji northeastern...aku rindu kawan2 aku kat situ....bila orang asyik citer pasal kawin2 ni ...aku jadi lemao la...i am tired of listening to the lectures....kot ye pun nak match make aku ...jgn la ingat aku ni desperado....huuu ...
globbie...am tired of being matchmade too...why cant these people be at rest...and just leave me ...with the M issue ...alone....i already have enough serabut in my kepala...adding M is just another brain sedated mode....kesian kat aku weiiiiiiiiiii...tamo la cakap pasai kawin lagiiiiiiiiiiiiii....

sigh...apa nak jadi tatau la...

cepat la balik sopek..kita pi jalan2 makan angin kat siam..aku dah bosan duk sini..semua orang cakap pasai menikah ja....ingat aku ni hati batu ka? takdak napsu ka?hish....bengong ah....

sometimes ...i am restless...
most of the times...rasa nyesal gak balik sini...

kan..?

to do list

salam globbie..

here's my to do list for tomorrow onwards..*sigh*

1) utm coursework
2) MQA files!!!
3) EP proposal! *die die*
4) 5S!!!!! forever tak siap2...dang~
5) new communication module for lower secondary holiday break program *die - sapa nak execute nih seme orang sabbatical? aku lagi? dush!! *
6) THREE write ups! ONE independent research!! and one helluva time to complete as the datelines are Nov 10th!!! (all FOUR of 'em!)
7) IF i survive those, I must be TOUCHED by ANGELS ..like so many of 'em! and I DESERVE a complete thai meal at Pattaya Village / Mud Crabs Rendezvous nearby the river hut / Mr Cook ( the least...)

8) die! die! die!

Of Mice and Men

hi yaa globbie...

today had a longgggggg talk with Ayah. he's gonna buy a new car...hisgh...biar betik....tetiba nak beli kereta baru ...I already have mine..and i do not think there is a need for another one. but he insist. haa...sapa nak jawab ni beydah...takkan aku nak drive dua...buat hoover craft? ngaa~ oh well....as far as I know ...there is no additional members in the family...none from me ..the least....now I wonder why....ha ha ....

I was supposed to be at the office today ..despite it's Friday...but i did not go. haaa ...talk about Lazy and Lazy. hee :) oh ya!! last night I had dinner with my niece ...at Pattaya Village...and I bumped into That Ustaz. ngohohoho~ getek eh? sabo je la abu....

i didnt expect it was him as i stared at him ..THRICE! ha ha ...it IS (WAS) him. we picked a table and little did we know ..HIS was NEXT TO US! coz he was talking on the phone outside the restaurant.....hadoii....hazabeydah....like a cheeky mouse...big ..fat cheeky mouse... I grin :) poyo-ish...oh shucks...nothing happen. REaLLy.....hahaha

had a SUPERB meal and scrumptious aphrodisiac...EEL! ha ha seriously...i will be back for more...and this time ..with no Ustaz around! -hopefully.

meals were too delicious ..we didn't snap photos. ( or was it malu at that Ustaz? ) dush! hahaha stop it~

it's 5pm...no point of going to the office....i guess ..the work is delayed to ..TOMORROW...

:)

Save the Last Dance~

salam globbie........

i am sleepy. already. i woke up at 9pm..for some drinks...and now it's 1130pm and I should be going to bed ..real soon. If i wanna make it tomorrow morning.

I currently do not have a proper routine schedule as I am so messed up with researches and loads for current semester and those MQA files need to be completed. haiyarghh....How i wish i can stop the time...*yawn*

to even cleanse my colon out ..I would have to make an appointment with mr T...isnt that ...screwed? I do not know how will I be like if am married and have children. work..husband...kids..poops..diapers...aigh...seriously? -phbttt...

in lecture earlier today, I was satisfied with my DDE's performance. Afiq..Ahmad Afiq and his opening speech of my DEAR cik Sha...awwww....sho shweet...the reason he chose the word "dear" is because I didnt like the word "beloved". It has become a cliche in most presentation WORLDfrikkinWIDE... so i told them off ....not gonna be easily bought with all cliches...and Afiq changes beloved to Dear...how chomel.....as usual...it is indeed a pleasant honor ... *horgh* :)

and Rusydan was simply amazing with his spider facts...and Muiz ...bajet ensem as usual...syaafiq and his underwear madness...Uwais with his lovelife-pang facebook...and fatmi the cheeky, flamboyant nerd...ha ha ...everyone was amazing. suka kan? bila u get outcome yang indah and tak sakit pankreas cenggini.....rasa macam...with a huge tall glass of pineapple sorbet..tepi laut...horgh...hahahahha

by the way ..do you know that hippo's milk is PINK?
haaa....kau ada? he he he

Mercer

owaiiyarkgh...globbie...

am so into that.

tehehehe~

weekend oh la la

salam globbie ..

hoigh...finally! i got to lazy on a weekend...saturday to be exact. I had class till 3pm yesterday and dropped by at Pakar Perdana for a short visit. checked on my nieces...and had some desserts at The Warrior's Station, where coincidentally the game with Terengganu was held and I got stucked in the parking lot. Foods at TRW? hmm..boleh la...so so ...didnt order the full meal course as I have already had lunch ...Chamim and I had ice creams instead. chit chatted a bit and there was this alphard-look-a-like parked next to mine ..DAG 10 ..pergh...so vip the number...i thought he was just some frantic kelantanese supporter...there I was confidently approached him to move his car to the right as I might not be able to squeeze in later. ha ha to my freakin surprise..he walked in TRW and nonchalantly said to me.. " kalau tak lepas, I ada kat dalam ye.." LOL...nak gelak pun ada nak kentut pun ado hahaha ...but my face managed to control all and i juz said " thank you.." KAH KAH KAH...really ...

whoever he is....thank you for being A MAN ...a Gentleman...I'd say ....(no there's no flirting lines there....nice try...ha ha )

in the midst of the crazy kelantan game ...i managed to squeeze meself out of the hocus pocus...drove home ...(instead of McD) and straight home ...and spent my Saturday..loafing like tak hengat donia....gosh..now i still have KUIS coursework to key in the vault room way freakin early tomorrow morning before Hj Rahim kill me. hehehe I am literally the LAST PERSON key-ing in all those results. heee :) sorry Gen, my rebellious mode is Super-On. :)

now ...i guess i will burn the whatnots oil I have....to finish tallying up all these marks...haigh....served me right. :)

What Goes around will DEFINITELY come around

Ya Allah ..
Kau Tunjukkanlah Balasan Ke Atas hambaMU yang "macam bagus" itu..

SesungguhNya aku redha dengan KetentuanMu.

Amin~

Life...Upon You

salam bloggie..

my days seem numbered...for him..it's numbered to meet his Creator...for me..numbered seeing him off...as early as 1215pm I have been alerted of his seizures and rushed to ICU. my sister had gone nuts...my nieces were as fast as a concorde jet...and I...didnt know really what should I do. I drove off after class to Perdana. Dad told me not to go to Azalea's as he is now in ICU. how should I react? I went there in silence.

I saw him. saw my sister first. earlier at the ICU ward some chinese couples thought I was a doctor. yikes...ada rupa ke? yucks...and I told them "sorry...am visiting too.." and with a worry smile ...i met up with my sister and he was (again) rushed to ct-scan room. all along I have been wondering how does he looks like in that commotion...(macam dalam movie tu ke...?) would i cry?

we waited outside of The Room eagerly wondering. at that point of time ..I really need to talk to someone, However I have no clue of whom. well i can't lie to you globbie...that "he" did come across my mind...I Miss the time when I can talk to him about anything. Now, I can never do the same. Now, I'm just Alone. (How pathetic, aren't I?)- yea, I know... *sigh*

As I was putting some senses into my head (of how LONELY I was) The Door was opened. they pushed him out. (damn...sebijik macam dalam House...) I glanced in jugak...just incase ...u know... the kinda Gregory-House might be in there...for 2 seconds maybe? huh..tade pon... what was I thinking? sheesh...too much TV...astaghfirullah...

we rode the elevator up to the ICU ward again...and accompanied him. I saw his face. red and unmoving. like...soul-less..in a way ..barely breathing. saw his vital machine...and everything is soo...House...I was cold.or Cold maybe.inside. for a fleeting moment...I pictured myself in that bed. and there I was ...Crying, inside. Will I grow Old and Alone? I do not think I want to anymore.

I wanna wake up in the morning in someone's arm.
I wanna be sick and have someone's hand stroking mine.
I wanna open my eyes and see My Love is adoring me, no matter what.
I wanna spend my entire life with The One.

problem is : How the HECK am i gonna find One?
bummer...

Kayak Day!

salam globbie!

he he ..I had a great day today. went out for kayak with my junior engineering boys. Fantabuluous!

we started off from the jetty a bit shaky...then off to the first pit stop nervously (for me) because the river is deeper than the usual's today. more than 100ft depth with God Knows width. We stopped at our first stop for water confidence. there, I saw my boys in various colours. I am Happy. to see THEM ...happy, laughing and giggling away. I have never seen them so happy.

and all of them were actually talking and mingling! and Jufri is just...amazing. He can actually TALK! ha ha ...and berak of course...Norm is no longer the shyboy...said nasri even...and zaidi ..TALKS too!!! oMg....hahahaha ...I love when I got what I want. and today...I got 'em way too much.

thank You Allah.

Of Courtesy and Ignorance

salam globbie...he he

i was in my engineering class this morning when I received a call. i have not been feeling good these past few days. yeah..I had a Heartache. As a result from constant stupidity. huh ..gile best ayat...

ok back to the phone call. i was about to start the lecture when my raspberry rang...huhu...then I heard my former elac's voice. told him i was in the midst of lecture and will return the call later. as i was invigilating the test...I took the chance to text him and asked what's up? and the answer was - nothing much, I just wanna hear your voice Cik Sha, I wish you all the best and be happy Cik Sha: and tears rolled down ma cheek. like Literally Rolling. One simple Thought, one simple Honest Thought...makes a HUGE different. That is a person who Respect the teacher and knows how to display the affection. at least to me that's what it was (is). Sincere and Plain.
and that was ENOUGH to make me feel like THE TEACHER OF THE CENTURY! HE HE

and when i told Ijat about that story, her remark was "mesti u nangis kan? u nangis tak? hehe yang local reti jugak nak ingat, yang dah pergi uk tak ingat-ingat pun ye ..." - TEBABOOOM~

the only words i managed to utter was "tu la tu.."
and I walked off to another lecture, where my other groups of students of the century!!! were waiting.

Thank you for Making me Feel so Special...