Friday, September 26, 2008

As I See

Assalamualaikum bloggie...

Almost everybody has left for Eid. I'm working till Tuesday. It's a tiresome routine but hey ...who's complaining? :-)

Eid is beautiful and full of Allah's Blessing. However, Eid in my life has never been that colorful as before. I have always wanted to avoid it, every year..(yeap...) If only I can disappear, I would. No offense. I was the one who was damn eager for 1 Syawal (once..upon a time in a lala land...) I was oober-excited with new clothings, new shoes, new purse...new everything. Now, I don't know where did it all go..hehe...

I have grown (I supposed). I no longer want new clothing and accessories. I no longer want to attend Open Houses. I prefer to be home and not do anything (in my home ..you cannot ..not do anything because people are in and out continously sometimes until night) oighhh...I didnt like that. They are all either my father's friends or (of course) The Relatives. I have too many. Some of them I didn't even know they exist. Next thing I know ..hey this is your cousin from bla bla bla...working as ..bla bla bla....big money ..bla bla bla....-married with 3 kids. Then I'd go BLA BLA BLA (inside...) Sometimes I wonder why am I so cold to THEM? My parents always lecture me on behaving myself. BEHAVE as in salam with them, go buat air, entertain them (do I look like a circus monkey?), sapu what they spit, pleaaaseeeddd THEM. aigghh....the list would go on and on and on ....and these people I only see ( there's a reason why I'm not using the word 'meet' here) ONCE a year! bosannya...because to me ..when we are relatives, WE:-
  • meet more than ONE time in a year

  • visit each other REGULARLY (not when we sick or about to die)

  • have iftar together

  • call up to say HELLO

  • have thanksgiving together, as in kesyukuran or majlis2 agama bersama-sama ..why not?

  • go picnics together or cuti-cuti Malaysia

  • chat over YM or text each other (for young ones)

  • frikkin' DO THINGS TOGETHER! duhhhh...
AND THAT are what RELATIVES and FAMILY mean to me. newsflash, in my so called family, we don't do all that (we used to..back in dinasour days) What happened? Beats me. Alas, everytime this annual event coming up, I don't feel like serving those people. Coz I felt like a big hypocrite. A staging that I've to put up with every year. People grow up and have committments (so do I) They claim time is not on their side, they were busy ....they were this and that. Craps. When I (purposely) did the same to them claiming I have no time, they were mad at me ...DUUUUUUUUUHHHHH....didnt you get the picture? I experimented a lot in my life ..and I came up with a conclusion that ..PEOPLE hardly realize their mistakes/shortcomings, YET they are just dying to punish and blame OTHERS, that's where they derive their satisfaction. Let it be a lesson-learned for me to not to become like them ..( eii Nauzubillah....muhasabah..muhasabah....)
Soon, (in 5 days time) I'm about to gear up for my fine act ..again. putting up smiles and oh-it's-been-a while-since-we-last-met (it was last raya, u jerk..) ...aiigghh..Sabar aje laaa....

That's why I prefer to be quiet. When I'm angry or dissatisfied (instead, I blog). hehehe. I'd be rude if I were to tell, right on da face (so.. I blog-lah..hahaha). Plus ...Allah SWT loves those who practices Patience and Gratitude.

"But give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere, who say, when afflicted with calamity: "To Allah we belong and to Him is our return":they are those on whom (descend) blessings from their Lord and Mercy. And they are the ones that receive guidance." (Al Baqarah:155-157)


Amin.

6 comments:

kawaii_desu said...

u're talking bout u getting pissed off??? scqarry..

till now i can still recall hang maki hindu buat ayaq kat cafe sampai melambung segala camca garpu semua hahaha

mcT said...

takpo mek sha...kalau boring sgt..tension2, just come over to my house. aboh pun duk bising dah tu..mek sha tak mari kow raya nih? moktey kuning ngan duu dah masak. dia pesan kalu mung nak mari..bawak terus guni. heheheh..umah au kalu raya takde sgt org mari. kalu ada pom..mung duk jer dlm bilik aku...KP tadok jabi. hehehhe...

mcT said...

*duku

Sha and Forward said...

pa...aku dah numb la pasal pissed off ni ...tak macam dulu dah ...tu luahan je la...since dorang plak pissed off ngan aku..sbb aku terlalu buat bodo jekk....keh keh keh ...bila aku sober..depa lak tak pueh hati ..keh keh keh ..

Sha and Forward said...

mct: hohoho..moktey..dap dap dap...inshaAllah ..tok leh nok janji bilo ..sbb 10-11 plan to cameron ...huhu nak gi jadi gadis ayu ..kilik bungo dale bakul paka skok ..huahuhauhauhua

Sha and Forward said...

pa: who could ever forget keris mas kafe aku selerakkan ..ha ha ha ha ha ..bila di ingat balik ..gelak sakan. cian anney tu..