As I See

Assalamualaikum bloggie...

Almost everybody has left for Eid. I'm working till Tuesday. It's a tiresome routine but hey ...who's complaining? :-)

Eid is beautiful and full of Allah's Blessing. However, Eid in my life has never been that colorful as before. I have always wanted to avoid it, every year..(yeap...) If only I can disappear, I would. No offense. I was the one who was damn eager for 1 Syawal (once..upon a time in a lala land...) I was oober-excited with new clothings, new shoes, new purse...new everything. Now, I don't know where did it all go..hehe...

I have grown (I supposed). I no longer want new clothing and accessories. I no longer want to attend Open Houses. I prefer to be home and not do anything (in my home ..you cannot ..not do anything because people are in and out continously sometimes until night) oighhh...I didnt like that. They are all either my father's friends or (of course) The Relatives. I have too many. Some of them I didn't even know they exist. Next thing I know ..hey this is your cousin from bla bla bla...working as ..bla bla bla....big money ..bla bla bla....-married with 3 kids. Then I'd go BLA BLA BLA (inside...) Sometimes I wonder why am I so cold to THEM? My parents always lecture me on behaving myself. BEHAVE as in salam with them, go buat air, entertain them (do I look like a circus monkey?), sapu what they spit, pleaaaseeeddd THEM. aigghh....the list would go on and on and on ....and these people I only see ( there's a reason why I'm not using the word 'meet' here) ONCE a year! bosannya...because to me ..when we are relatives, WE:-

• meet more than ONE time in a year


• visit each other REGULARLY (not when we sick or about to die)


• have iftar together


• call up to say HELLO


• have thanksgiving together, as in kesyukuran or majlis2 agama bersama-sama ..why not?


• go picnics together or cuti-cuti Malaysia


• chat over YM or text each other (for young ones)


• frikkin' DO THINGS TOGETHER! duhhhh...

AND THAT are what RELATIVES and FAMILY mean to me. newsflash, in my so called family, we don't do all that (we used to..back in dinasour days) What happened? Beats me. Alas, everytime this annual event coming up, I don't feel like serving those people. Coz I felt like a big hypocrite. A staging that I've to put up with every year. People grow up and have committments (so do I) They claim time is not on their side, they were busy ....they were this and that. Craps. When I (purposely) did the same to them claiming I have no time, they were mad at me ...DUUUUUUUUUHHHHH....didnt you get the picture? I experimented a lot in my life ..and I came up with a conclusion that ..PEOPLE hardly realize their mistakes/shortcomings, YET they are just dying to punish and blame OTHERS, that's where they derive their satisfaction. Let it be a lesson-learned for me to not to become like them ..( eii Nauzubillah....muhasabah..muhasabah....)
Soon, (in 5 days time) I'm about to gear up for my fine act ..again. putting up smiles and oh-it's-been-a while-since-we-last-met (it was last raya, u jerk..) ...aiigghh..Sabar aje laaa....

That's why I prefer to be quiet. When I'm angry or dissatisfied (instead, I blog). hehehe. I'd be rude if I were to tell, right on da face (so.. I blog-lah..hahaha). Plus ...Allah SWT loves those who practices Patience and Gratitude.

"But give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere, who say, when afflicted with calamity: "To Allah we belong and to Him is our return":they are those on whom (descend) blessings from their Lord and Mercy. And they are the ones that receive guidance." (Al Baqarah:155-157)

Amin.